The perfect week?

Potentially so.

I'm actually not sure how this is going to affect me in the long run, because everything has fallen into place almost simultaneously. This scares me a little - for now I have to hold everything down and keep it together!

So, Friday night was the best night out I have had in a VERY long time, and rounded off a week of finishing uni, trial shifts and fun times. I wasn't worrying about anyone, there was no real drama and I drank more than I wanted to, but hey - I was finally having a night about me, where nothing was going to stop me from having a good time, and so it proved. Saturday was spent sleeping, drinking tea and going to a friend's leaving meal, where I finally tasted Heaven's food (ribs), tried mussels and risotto and had a wonderful laugh with friends, with today about seeing family. To top it all off, Chelsea won the Cup, even if I spent the last 30 minutes watching it through my fingers. A wonderful end to a wonderful week

My one concern is that Friday night left me in more of a wonderful position than I was expecting. Something happened that came so far out the blue even the Smurfs were applauding the colour as it left the hue. And it's actually caused a disruption. A good disruption I would like to add, but one that I've actually been struggling to deal with - although being utterly shattered hasn't helped either, as tiredness makes everything so much more intense. Nevertheless, the last 48 hours have been about me riding a wave of conflicting emotions and I haven't been dealing with them great. That said, I've dealt with them better today than last night, so that's a plus. And whilst I know that it won't be a long-term thing, I will make the most of it, as I'm happier than I have been in ages.

Arrangements are in place for my 20th birthday. It's two weeks away. 14 days. 336 hours (and counting). Expect a couple of poems about my teenage life as I go through this. I'm scared, but obviously looking forward to it at the same time. It's going to be a laugh and a half.

I'm really tired - didn't get much sleep last night and I could do with some. FINALLY seeing the Avengers tomorrow: the first trip saw us get within ten people to the box office and the line selling out, so here's hoping we can actually see it this time.

Laters xx